I'm a senior. I've gotten into my top two colleges (Gustavus and Augsburg) and now have to decide which one to go to... My grades are the norm (all A's but a D+ and a F, which are about to change). Just finished my second choir concert of the year (went well for Concert Choir, not so well for Women's Choral). Friends are the usual, there/not, full of drama and their own obsessions. One of my paintings (my mandala) has been entered into an art competition called the Les Farrington Best 100 Exhibition. So I am waiting to hear if it's made it past the "consideration" stage. Keep your fingers crossed for me! I am also very excited about the track season starting. I am ready to kick some butt, and OWN this season. I am also hoping that I can get my coach to consider me as a captain, but it's doubtful...
Christmas was fine, it was Christmas Eve that I didn't like so much. I was supposed to take my driver's test, but couldn't because my dad didn't have proof of insurance in the car.... Way to go dad... But I got some pretty awesome gifts, some EXTREMELY awesome gifts, and had a great time with my family.
I recently had a major lapse back into depression. There were quite a few close calls when it came to wanting to hurt myself or others (or actually hurting myself...) and it took WEEKS to convince my mother to get an appointment with my shrink. I told her how easily it was for me to get from annoyed to PISSED in nanoseconds. Turns out that I just needed to exercise more. I get all this built-up frustration from the school day, and if I just go home to sit and do more homework, I burst. So, I am now working out for at least 30 mins either at school on the track, or at home on the treadmill. I am looking forward to seeing myself after a few months of this, and seeing how stable my emotions are.
Oh, and I have a MAJOR crush (some might say obsession) with a new guy. And no, he's not a celebrity. Let's just call him Aze. He's a 6'4", 180 lbs., RIPPED, basketball player for the White Bear Basketball team, one of their best players, and certainly the hardest working one. He has 2 tattoos, brown eyes, brown buzz cut, a great smile and laugh, and I can't stop thinking about him. We've made eye contact once (maybe). I have now been to 7 of his games, and love every minute of them. I have actually started taking pictures at the games, and I have some REALLY cool shots of just about everyone on the team. I started going to these games because his assistant coach is my personal trainer. My PT likes it when a few of his friends/clients come to the game because then he feels like he has someone cheering for him too. I think I am so attracted to him because he is something so completely new and exciting. I have been gong to the same school with the same people for almost 13 years now, and everyone there feels like family. It would almost be incestuous to date one of them now....
So, to sum up, Aze has no idea who I am (he MIGHT be recognizing me from going to so many of his games), my PT knows that I have a crush on him, I have been basically trying to find out as much as I can about the guy, and I am a creeper in every way other than watching him sleep (a la Edward Cullen). My family is starting to worry about me.
Listening to: Black-Eyed Peas, Todd Agnew, The Rasmus, Green Day, and Apocalyptica
